Normal routine goes on as usual followed by the meetup at Enghan's place with Stanley and Albert. Its a super long walk out of Eng Han's place at Upper Coast road. Sweets joined us later on and we had a great sumptuous supper after that. You never go hungry when sweet's around! He will never forget to feed me well with FOOD! He is like super naggy brother who never forgets to take good care of people!
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Prayers: Please bring joy to my love, I've never leave a single bit. I am faithful and is constantly praying for greatness in him. Chinese New year is coming, and I really hope that he will have a warm and lovely new year.
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Day 44 Thursday
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There is no BBG today and I am able to catch the guys up for Lo'Hei. The usual group of unimates ^^ finally I get to see them after so long. Dinner was great !
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Prayers: Today I pray that god take away something from him. God, please take away procrastination and worries from him. Bring on gifts of faith to my love. I just want him to be happy. I want him to lead a wonderful life even though I may not be the one sharing it with him anymore.
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Day 45 Friday
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I stayed home for the whole afternoon packing up, cleaning the house and blah blah stuffs. Headed down to CNY service at Expo. Today's sermon is about money. Pastor kong was preaching about making wealth and money growth. I've learned the word of god through the man of god. These wordings directs straight to my job, thank you lord for teaching me how and telling me what to do. I am really amazed by how my heavenly father showered wisdom on me. I picked up really wonderful words about how to teach my clients in planning. God always answers my prayers when I ask him how. He will speak to me through people, through his words in the bible and through the visions he gave me. Praise the lord.
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And Dinner was GREAT ! Curry Fish Head with everybody ! followed by Durians at Geylang. I meet up with Daddy Kong after my fellowship. I am glad that I have the chance to speak to Becky to convey the message I always wanted to tell her.
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Prayers: I will never forget my prayers no matter how tired I am everyday. To pray with faith. To shower blesses and the love I have for that him. The love that will never depreciate with time. The care I will always give and the thoughts seeing him good in all ways everyday.
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Day 46 Saturday
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Its Chinese New Year eve and its time for Reunion. Spent my day preparing food and documents for appointment in the evening. My love hubhub called, a call in which I've never expect to receive. I thought its holly or my neighbour. Both have withheld lines. He is the 1st on who wishes me Happy Chinese New Year on the eve. Delighted to hear his voice of course.
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With all the dinner stuffs and blah blah, driving here and there for appointments. I am done with work for the evening. I've did what I need to do and accompanied sister downstairs to walk the dog. It was 12 something, thinking that I haven really wish my hubhub Happy CNY, I dropped him a message to wish him with all best and to let him know I am there behind his back and stuffs.
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He called back wishing me a Happy Valentine in return. Deep down, I was thinking there is nothing to be happy about for Valentine anyway. We talked for awhile, keeping a peaceful heart our conversation went on as normal. I would really like to bring this across to him that 2 right doesn't correct a mistake. It is never measured in that way. He always feel that he has been treating me great and he will always excuse off about the immense amount of hurt he has put me into. How great is the impact of the hurtful things he did on me and how much courage I put myself through to face it leading a blameless life to continue loving him. Many of our mutual friends see it, know it and understand it. Time makes these friends see who I am, that is the reason why they love me and continue to shower care and love. I didn't do anything at all to gain their love, all I did is just simple true gesture of me, a person who cares using her heart.
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I am glad that god walks into my heart and teaches me to be a great faith like child of his. Learning to put others in front of me, to care and give. In return god blesses me with solutions to solve my problems, bless me with great ideas in my up-coming businesses, to teach me how to help my prospects and clients as well as to stay gracious to people who doubt me. I know god will never short-change me as long as I follow his words and continue with greater faith in him.
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Time for prayers and time to get day 43 - 46 out of my draft.
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Prayers: God, please lift my love off difficult situations and direct him towards the lighted pathway. Teach him how and show him how. Let him know, no matter what he face and how he becomes, I am always here and time will not die me out. He is free from me and I no longer act as a troublesome obstacle he has to try his best to cast it away. I will not obstruct him anymore. In return, I will be faithful, continue praying for him and to love him. In fact there is nothing great about me. All I have is a blameless heart, and the gift from the lord to understand the real underlying meaning of love. ^^ I love my *smelly chou chou*
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If you realised how precious life is, I am spending everyday of my life, more than an hour each day since my post turned into titled "Days" to bless you with prayers. Written or spoken to heavenly father. Even how tired I am, I'll never forget to tell god to take care of you, speak to you through your heart and to bring you true greatness. I am not allow hug you by my side and show you how much I love you anymore, so let my faithful prayers of your well being stays while I continue to love you in another way. A way which is unseen, but my god knows. ^^
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