Day 52

Day 52

Had a sumptuous dinner and fulfilling day at work making 3 appointment on Friday. Raspberry and honey beer at Novena, tasted so refreshing. I am surprised that the owner of that restaurant remembers me. He came over and wished me Happy Chinese New Year ^^

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I headed out to meet Micheal and Cindy after my mini booze with my bitch. We had a late night. Drinks and supper. Once a while, its nice to hang out at this familiar place I used to hang out at named Zouk. My first Zouk session of the year in 2010.

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Prayers: Painting my prayers for my hubhub on day 52. I pray that heavenly father touch his heart, clear his doubts, plant the seed of good in his heart. I know he is not bad person. It is his unclear character and evil root temptation which causes so much of infidelity in our relationship. I pray to god to make him a honorable person, change and make him a into a great maximised man. I pray for him, continue my care and love for him. I never ask god to bring us back together again. Because for the fact, he've never once part my heart. I love him enough.

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I was on Vince's car the other night and he was doubtful about how is it possible to accept infidelity in a relationship? How is it possible for me to forgive him. I told vince, if you ever love someone enough, you will understand why. At a stage when love is intense, there will be 2 outbreak. Intense hatred due to intensive love. I almost fell into that category I am glad heavenly father touched me personally, he calms my heart and taught me to be forgiving. I am an extremist by nature. When I said I can love someone for my lifetime, that means I can do the vice versa to hate someone and use my lifetime to revenge on this infidelity love. I am glad I chooses to be forgiving and to continue my love and care in a peaceful way. I told Vince, Jesus didnt hate Judah for betraying him, he didnt throw him out of the house for stealing his golds for land. As we walked on with Christ in our life, we begin to truly learn his words to be more Christ like. To forgive and not hate, to accept and not blame, to give and not take. God knows and he will never do injustice to us. Even on the day Jesus die, he was never poor. He is rich because he know god will never short-change us in life. Vince was taken back, mike was sitting behind he gave a pat on my back and said ; Seven, you will be growing in a even stronger positive mental mind through Theology. Like I said, I want to be strong, positive, righteous, humble and be a fully maximised lady of god. I always tell god to give me patience, wisdom to understand, a heart to give and god to take away my pride, my ego and the evil root of temptation.

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Grace