Daily life

Best Swimmer,
Elly the Elephant

New paint up at Sim

He and his self made goggles
With an enormous mouth,

PINC the retail store for my
Distribution Channel project

Darling and his glow in the light drink
Looks like Gin Tonic under UV ray

Dan Brown beside Regent hotel

This place is really cool,
Nice chill out
Located near Regent Hotel,
45 degrees to Hard Rock Cafe
Behind The former Devils Bar

Hongala Baby trying to take a sniff
at the axe oil from the in between of Teddy

Insane busy schedule

Insane

I had got million and one things to sum up.
Life is insane.
Life was super hectic for my for the past weeks,
Whatever revolves around are my
assignments,
projects,
tutorial,
appointments,
tons of unfinished stuffs.

Common test is just at the right turn corner
which happens to be like coming Saturday.
Holy Shit!
Still 10 more chapters to go.

How i wish i have got 48 hours a day.
Sleepless nights
assignments and project till wee hours.
Housework to be done.
I barely have got 6 hours of sleep a day.

Look at my schedule.
Proposal submission last week
i printed out the hard copies till 4am in the morning.
thou that i am glad am blessed with great group mates.

Case study submission tomorrow which is thurs.
I just got it printed out.
Market Research test coming Saturday,
Management meeting at Century Sq at 1.30pm
Management Accounting Test on Coming Tues
Driving lesson on Wed.
TP on the following week.

Everyone is bloody stressed up.
Thanks April.
You are a great team coordinator.

Ian

My love tong had been stressing up lately as well,
Stressed to meet targets,
fixing appointment,
disappointment from friends who claimed they are brothers.
He is equally bottled up.
No worries,
I'll help you with all i can.

Lastly thanks my du bee,
I know you dote me just like i do.


Mum
Dad

Thanks Mum, for supporting me financially when i m damn broke.
Paying my violin fees,
My driving fees,
School fees,
Allowances,

Thanks for all that.

Dad for getting a savings plan which made me richer.
I wont let both of you down i promised.
I will work for it,
Save up for my own premium
I believe hard work gets pay off.

Horoscope for today

The Bottom Line
Confidence is your most important tool, so start patting yourself on the back!

In Detail
Your confidence is a very important tool in life, and today it's vital for you to fully appreciate the value you bring to the world. Cherish who you are, because there is no one else on earth who has your unique blend of sophistication, intelligence and compassion! If you don't start patting yourself on the back more, you could become easy prey for people who like to manipulate others or con others into doing the work that they should be doing.

Reminiscing

That song,
indeed reminiscing.
That video clip he sent,
playing on his guitar
Singing at the same time,
perfectly cool
heart warming as well
a song he played,
to cheer me up during those dark points in my life.

He is the angel who appear,
during the darkest period.
Who cheered me up,
and make me feel loved.
Well loved by my dear friends.

Seeing him play on the guitar,
do make me reminisce.
Of the good old poly days i used to live

Carefree.
Troubled free.
Jovial.

Terence's Birthday

Part of the liquor at Terence's BirthdayLook at the enormous brandy glass for the Birthday man

That's the birthday man with his enormous Brandy Glass

Toast to everyone on that enormous glass
Looks scary but the mixed drink does taste good
But the after effect is rather horrifying as well.

I will be...

I will try my best to be.
Help you along the way.
Be the even more understanding.
We are both busy,
Let work hard together ya.
Build towards a better future for the good of us.

He/She

I happened to see her in our lecture theathe. She is attractive and adorable. Her metrosexual dressing gave her away. Probably my prediction shall be wrong. Probably she is not a homosexual its just a causal way of dressing. She is the type of person who attracts both the male and female to her. She resembles the above adorable lady Ms Ling. She was backpacking a hockey stick. In a Tshirt and Berms and fashion sneakers fm nike or adidas. Short boyish styled hair black hair looks real neat and tidy for her. The only thing i can say, she got style. The moment i saw her i cant stop turning back to look. She is simply too adorable! I grabbed Rena, when she walked past. Too bad she didnt earn a chance to peep at the right view of hers. Next time round during MR class ;-) I will be her soon to be friend.

Choices

At times i was wondering do i have a choice to make. Many told me of course my dear, better choices out there, those who revolves around you make good choices. I do not know with that much of doubt and bad experiences i had in the past, how far can i continued walking in my current love life.

.Things i did to balance my emotional fears. Too hard even for the closest to understand. These are the things i do not hold threat to me in the past. I am having it all together now. Those things i observed, see and feel, the feeling of people deluding me even the people i used to respect and trust.

He asked me to confront with someone trustworthy, i dont see the point. Once beaten twice shy, i m not going to do that anymore. Re assuring, i do not know whether that helps, but the numbing feeling had risen. One day, nothing is gotta suppress it anymore. I hope that this day dont come, as that will be the ugliest side of me. The cruel and cold me resurfaced when everything starts to fade.

Without exciting point to ignite in a relationship. No surprises only shocks and disagreements.

A "too" feeling person may be good and bad. Everything rely on feelings. I wont drag or waste other's time when my feeling for that person fades off. Just like what happened in the past. The word love should be actionable not only consist of just words.

Someone told me, i am too independent, self sufficient . Maybe its true. This is the kind of feelings i gave others.

Miss him so much!

First night without you around.

I miss your voice,

you hug hug,

You kiss kiss,

You telling me,

Dear ah dont hor.

You telling me to eat more,

*pout lips*

Pls be back soon my love.

Day 2

Its the 2nd day.

Miss my darling so much!

Da Gui, Xiao Gui miss you alot as well!

Waiting for you to be back!

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I m into online auction shopping these days

Above is the new top i'hv got.

Its rather reasonable for the price.

Do take a look at the links

http://sg.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/user/insynclothes

and this

http://sg.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/user/aishiteru_kyo1986

They have got gorgeous and reasonable priced clothes

1st Day

It was a tiring day,
Arghh... lessons lessons lessons.
I cant take it anymore,
i was too tired then.
So i decided to pamper myself so i went shopping at holland V
with Rena and Ping.
got a beautiful top for myself.
Hahaaa.. Excuses i know!
Well i did a lot of things
Other than eating my favourite wasabi seaweed!

I am glad i am done with my laundry and ironing finally!

Holy shit! Opportunity cost:

Do Laundry and Dont Watch TV

Done with ma case study!

At least i would be able to strike off 2 items off my checklist.

BALI ? BINTAN?

The lovely place he went to called Bintan.
Anyone knows about the Bintan or Bali Curse?

How true is it?

I do not know it.

Heard that usually couples broke off after one or both

goes to either place.

Hope that wont happen to me ...

Sounded so serious.

Well actually i dont care a damn.

Bintan or Bali.

Thats not the factor.

Problem lies with people not place.

May it be Bali or Bintan

My bee will be still my bum bum bee bee.

Right?

Pls: I really do miss you alot, well to many things to clear. should clear them while u are away ya. At least i can spare my whole weekends for you!

Hope you are sleeping well over there.

Muacks Nitey whole day

Miss u! Dont even get a chance to hear ur voice.

Count down 1 2 3

1 down.

Belated Birthday Gift

Thanks for that :)

That was from Kai and Ric

Birthday ll

We have got a number of leo babies
Myself
Jason
Angelia
Jerline
Gary
Hazel
Kelly
Joze

Happy Birthday Jason!

.
.
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Happy Gui Gui Family

The store i purchased my 4th baby gui

Skeleton Aeromatic watches

This design is interesting

The Skeleton Watch

This 's the one Rach own

Its 25th July 2007

Its my Birthday

The following is from my dearest Du bee CatCat
Thanks my Du bee Cat Cat
I love it very much
I really do appreciate your effort.

Thanks my dear friends for that lovely gift!

Birthday this year was an unique one.
No favorite chocolate indulging nor strawberry filled cream cake.
I'hv got a cup cake.
Those SIM would give their fellow students for refreshments.
The colour yesterday was gloomy when i saw him
he looks unhappy and pissed mostly contributed in work.

The whole evening he didnt smile.
That evening was just an usual one.
Nothing really special

I guess everyone's tired.

Situation changed after a call from his aunt.
He turned better.
Finally
.
.
.
.The celebration.

I thought i would have a peaceful birthday night with him.
Him and just him.
There is no just the 2 of us plan.

Well fair enough,
I was happy that night.
To have him around on my Birthday for the first year.
Although it looks that birthday this year was a simple one
deep down in me,
I am glad you are by my side.
Initially i thought we will be heading home after
dropping off at Aunt house.

Thanks for arranging that mini yet heart warming surprise for me.

My Favourite Strawberry Shortcake

That feeling

That feelings sucks
When you wanted to spend sometime
pick that time out of your schedule
make an effort to
accompany that one you really loved.
You wont mind clearing off your load
by sacrificing some sleep
to spend time with the person who weigh so much.

In return,
being criticize of since you are busy
you do not need to take up that time for that person whom u love.

Trying so hard to maintain it thou both of our schedules are tight.
To get even more disagreements.
Something i do not want to see.

The feelings of being redundant
The feelings of
without my company,
things will work out better?

That effort i spend is just not appreciated.
Having dinner is not what is concern
Seeing you is what that truly matters

I am getting tired
Just pray that things will still goes on fine.

Ceasar

Spent my night with my du bee
and his colleagues at Ceasar along Liang Siah Street

My assumption was he's busy
and wouldnt want to hinder him for
some social learning experiences or some
tipping point his superior might have tip him off.
I went home after a few drinks.

Work is busy for him,
In future
lesser and lesser time to be spend together
My work will be loading up soon.
A kick start for most of my projects.
Knowing that there will be lesser time to be spend together.
I hope that for the time we spend having each other side by side
to reduce argument.

Probably I am just not myself.
Not the usual self i used to be
making my own priority top of anything else.
Now his priority had became mine.
I do not know why.

Most of the time,
Thinking he will be happy after some of the things i did.
But i was wrong, totally wrong.
Probably I should spare so much of a thought for him
Too much i guess.

I realized its not that easy making the one you love happy.
Sometimes of the night before i sleep,
I felt feelings which i really longed for.

The feelings of being pampered.
The feelings of being spoilt.
I am not greedy.
Probably just once in a blue moon will satisfy me.

The feelings of being dote like a little baby,
Had long parted me.

Friday the II

It was a rainy friday.
As usual i attended my violin class and head off to town
to meet up with my dubee cat.
It was a rush night.
Had dinner and dubee and i went to centrepoint
to look for Irene.
Case close.
Had a short night on Friday.
Went to Newton to meet the guys up for some drinks
and snacks.
I headed home after that
while dubee and guys went on to continue their
drinks an chatting session
at Safra.

That night, Dubee fell asleep,
and i couldnt reach him at all.
Finally at around 4am in the morning,
he picked up the ringing house phone
after ample missed calls.
My tone when he picked up the call was
angry.
Its frustrating when you cant reach someone
especially the one u loved so much.
He's reply was he was too tired and he fell asleep
while waiting for my call.

Thou it was that, i was still fuming when i
put down the phone.
I cant get to sleep till i saw the rays of sunshine
which i suppose its really time
to get some sleep.

Its a mambo night

This's Cass its surprising to see her,
She happens to be Angeline's Good friend
My world is so small!

St James Tiger life

The bar attendant was kind,
She gave me that.
That idiot who approaches me when i was weeping,
I told him to go i wasnt in the mood,
He pressed for my numbers.
I was indeed rather patience not to give him a tight slap across
his face.
Do not try to be funny with a Leo especially when she is pissed
her anger and strength multiplied as her drinks increase.
If you cant speak proper English pls dont embarrass yourself.
I understand mandarin.
He left after i said "I m not a single interested in that! Pls get lost!''

I thank my dear friend you should know who.
Accompanying me for that moment i was alone.
Through just words.
thanks

kai was sweet,
Indeed a friend to be.
I received her sms when i got home.

Its time to be rational
Do things in a proper manner.
Dont club as if no rules apply.
Dont assume when things are not the case.

Be a true me.
To get the me back once again.

Thursday

Overslept and i was late for classes. Lecture was fine today module today is easy to comprehend and the speaker kinda keeps me awake most of the time.

Had brownie for breakfast i had 2 and a half of it but ended up in the loo as usual after my meals. My intention today was to have project meeting and head towards town and either slack in some cafes to read my book or waste money on movies which i haven been watching for quite sometime. It was kind of them after knowing i will be alone for a movie, they volunteered to watch it with me. Ended up watching Harry Potter the order of the phoenix. Wasnt something fantasic to. I would consider watching the half blood prince next season. The plot just die off a bit. Probably i have too high expectation for that movie. After all, The best espisode is still the Golbet of Fire.

.My Du Bee.

Finally i got to see him after 4 days of missing, finally got to kiss him. MUACKS~~

Dont Shoot me!

The joke of the day starring the s.w.a.t team: Go go go... Oh pls dont shoot me!
That was real funny when our BBMKG " Hua Zai " imitates me.
Its another tiring morning class,
I miss my Tong tong,
didnt see him 2 days in a row. We used to be meeting 24/7 , thats life we gotta accommodate to each other as we have got our own priorities fulfill.The faith and trust enables us to stand strong as it is. Tong tong Cat i really miss you so so much!!!! BF class was cancelled last min. and i went to shoot some pool games with dear Stacy, gotta brush up my skills a little, try to concentrate more to get the balls in to pocket, true enough i really got to aim properly. We had hideous fun today with Stacy we just cant stop laughing, we are self entertaining come to think of it. So far so good more practice will make perfect, when i am done with my training, it will be time to have a real game with my tong tong cat. I am such a lousy player cos i sucks at that game.

Gavin wasnt in a good mood today which Stacy and me feel, something wrong with him other than tired. Yoz friend relax things will be fine yup.

Tong tong cat went to mid year planning at marine parade today but i was too lethargic to join him. I am sorry about that. Morning classes tmr and gotta do some MA tutorials as well and keep my revision constant. So tired today, gotta take a nap.

Monday moudly blues

Finally gotta meet Rachel's new Tian tian de,
So cute i mean the both of them.
This is a breaking up and find new love season for most of my pals.
Gary has got his, and Rachel found her new Tian tian.

Saw Stacy's so call enemy.
That rich spoilt brat who doesnt knows how to pop a tequila pop,
The resemble,
Who i got in the house?
Its Theresa!
The Rebecca look alike,
the difference is Theresa has got better figures
and BBs
and she's smart, typical girl school look
She is the well known BB in our BBMKG

That stile toe fair lady in class
quite a lot of new faces which arise comments. hahaa
That group of ladies in attracting attention ladies infront of us
did attract the attentions of the guys in our course.
Well dressed marketing students Well done.

We had a 3 hours break today,
guess how we spent?
We spent our hours singing ktv at halo bar over at np.
FOC

Well so much of fun in sch and its time to spend some time on my
revision as well.
Ciao, work hard this semester.

Present a good port folio
Go go go~~~

Human Vs Animals

What is the difference between human and animal? Even little kids can spot the difference. But We look more in depth as an adult.

We compare emotions and intelligence human obsess. An animal wont be able to differentiate what is right and what is wrong unless you will to reward it with probably food when they did the right thing and smack them hard when they did something wrong.

Human, clearly understands what is right or wrong. They would be able to judge according to what the see, hear and picture. Think the consequences if a wrong will to happen, whether they hide it? spin a lie? or confess? up to individual to interpret.

Similarities
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Animals do not have the conscious and intelligence to do what a human can do. They dont even care if the partner they are mating with is from the same mother or what so ever. In fact they can just mate with any animal which of the same kind which walks along the way. They do not need to be responsible of their action, worst come to worst just walk clumsily across the highway and get knock down by some moving vehicles.

Human fucking with someone from the same mother, its consider unethical. To fuck with someone who come along their way is called casual sex and might risk getting aids maybe, luckily there's a great invention call CONDOM. Well even though most human still caught aids, sadly. A human walk clumsily and get knock down by a moving vehicle probably wont die and can sue the driver for a sum of compensation.


Differences
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Animals they do not know what is love, in their dictionary is only loyalty for men's best friend. They do not know what if faithful ( we exclude dolphins as they are real faithful partners) They do not know what is friendship, in their world is all about survival.

Human beings, they can be faithful to one if they choose to, not to fuck around cause fucking around make no difference with compared to stray moaning cats below your hdb. They know what are friends for and they know how to care and shower concern to the people they love and care and in human world survival means adapting and excel in it.

So, ask yourself do u want to be an animal or an ethical human who is able to differentiate the right and wrong?

The Detour

How many people are given a chance to do a detour in life? Many would choose to stay stagnant in their comfort zone and be it the rest of their life. Minor arguments in relationship some says it build up stronger rapport and faith others may debate it in another. People tend to say things out of anger to spite another party whom they might by piss with. Why dont I? Its not because i cant, its just that i know once something is said, that something may not cause any disturbance to yourself but the its always clearly captured into the ears of the other party. I used to be cursing and swearing for the half of my life blaming on who ever i can push the blame onto other than myself.

But I'hv learn my lesson by seeing myself in the other. A total me the unreasonable and outrages hotheaded me. Of most of the time i would choose not to flare and be patient. The short tempered me in the past forgets what i said in a click moments after i flared, but left a hurting verbal abused in others. I'hv come to learn that to forgive is also part of the generous me. Or maybe after so much of pounding and piling i dont get to puke that often. Parts and puzzles of life to never stop learning.

I hear this from a good friend of mine. A super nice person, always care for others and never wants anything in return, One wrong step, that person score him or herself a black spot on a clean sheet of paper. That obvious dot on the white. People start to look only on that tiny black spot.

A super selfish person, who never spare a thought of other's feeling, what ever that person do, he or she want to see a return. When that person try to care and changes just a little, he or she score a white spot on his black sheet of paper. That obvious white dot on a black sheet of paper. It goes the same way, people tend to focus only on the obvious.

Back to School Monday

Back to school yupz this time round, yes to push myself hard aiming for a HD for my management Accounting this semester and i see this Chin-aust lecturer rather impressive. Sophia is good, but she is leaving tomorrow and hopefully the local Uncle will do good job as she did. No Mrs Bean pls!

Out for dinner with Dudu and his family. Dinner was great the fish maw soup * 2 thumbs up* for that. When out to meet alan and stac after dinner and neither i realised my bubu du was unhappy.
Unsure because i m too insensitive to retarted enough not to sense it, and the Golden Phase of the night * Ta da * Maybe and Maybe not.

KTV at cuppage was fine and not too fine, 1/2 of the time am looking at my cellphone waiting for bubu du's call. Singing and looking not wanting to miss any call he gave. But that was just me waiting endlessly, he is too pissed to give me a call.

At that moment, i really do not know what he want and why is he showing this kind of attitude without any reason? He just do not wish to tell me why and the best part, which was kind of saddening and i did tear a little of the things he said. At that point of time, i felt total disappointment cause all i did just exchange those throat slashing words. I was totally unwanted.

As usual, the next morning he pretend as if nothing happened not even to mention until i broke the issue up. * Close my eyes*

End of it and Seven, u're reminded eh pls sometimes if someone tells u to leave, pls dun fan jian pick your butt up and leave and dont turn back.

The st James night

St james powerhouse, a place compiled with complicated people. When someone says ; hey lady can i get u a drink? They try to hook u up. Its never just a drink. The place is complete with rude and uncouth people who would just curse and swear when u accidentally bumped onto them. The DJS wasnt facinating and the dancing crowd are just not very remarkable. I doubt no stranger would offer a pack tissue paper to you when u puke, and no stranger would stand up for you when some weird ang mos is trying to get some fresh with you. In St James people are just so concentrated i do not know why. Unless happens to be you friends in other case, just forget about it. I'hv lost that kind of drive i used to have when i club. Cant dance anymore cant drink as well. Nothing interests me anymore when it comes to clubbing.

~~I really miss those days~~

Those days at Black which ming, nic james bryan twinkle hazel and hol. Those freak days at zouk the glasses of graveyard which brought me to hell and back. The super friendly crowds.

Thanks male strangers, you guys shielded me when some drunken is trying to be funny with me. Thanks male strangers for the care and i know u guys really mean no harm. Thanks female strangers for scolding that someone cos he stepped on my feet. Thanks unisexed strangers for letting me use the loo first cos im gg to puke in no time. Thanks unisexed strangers for knocking on my cubical door to check if i m ok.

The community i was once from.

~~ The dream duster ~~

There is no fairy-tale land nor magical spells likewise in reality. No harry potter, no fairy god mother neither are there fairies.

Living in a world, everyone is pretentious probably even the one who is closest to you. My dream burst, i woke up from my dream finally. There is no prince charming nor the perfect partner in life. Constantly in search for it for the past so many years hoping to bump onto the finest. Appearance is just so damn fucking deceiving.

At once i thought, finally someone that silly yet adorable touched my heart turns out to be another rubbish bin whom i choosed to forsake him in the world of forbidden city *Tart* I cancelled him out of my phone list. It was so disappointing. So girls, wake up as there is nothing like the perfect lover in the world. Too much of imagination i suppose.

Had been a dreamer for the past 10 years of my life. Its really time i should wake up from my dream and get my ass back to the realistic world, money will do the talking dude. I'hv stopped no more hope for my dream which was utterly ridiculous.

Even if there is something, like a dream duster; remember there's a movie 13 goes 30? That dream house and dream dust, which made her the most influential Exec. Editor of a top fashion magazine Posh. She have got everything in her life but none of the people around her is true. Everything in the world is fair, you'hv exchange something for another, its deem u'll lose the other. Opportunity cost. Therefore think wise before action as once done cannot be undone. Move a wrong step in life be prepared, be a man and face the concequences. It always come back to the cause and effect. True enough i am glad till the past 22 years in my life, haven regret thou. Every step i took, every time i wasted, i learn its never wasted. I am true to myself and everyone else and i live my life with no regrets.

Everything just jammed up

I had a million and one unhappiness contributed by SIM, the course coordinator just fuck everything up, 2 separate invoices with chucked up to around 5.7k and my management accounting happens to collide with my organisational behaviour. Sucks sUCKS SUCKS~~~~~

Thursday

Had a shopping day out with my family at vivo city,

I didnt get my DKNY jacket nor my Calvin Klein Clutch bag

Instead sis got a great harvest.

Vivo doesnt have the stuffs i wanted.

Our intial plan is to go shopping at Orchard

Mum suppose to get herself a burberrys handbag but

time doesnt allows us to travel to orchard

mum has got ST in the evening.

There goes my jacket and clutch bag *sob sob*

Met up with my tong tong pig in the evening

we brought Jenna to centrepoint to look at the Giant Rabbit

too bad its sold.

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Spending time together

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Tong tong is really stress up with work,

work load for him is getting heavier and heavier

i do not want to be a burden of his.

Thou he is rather disappointed with what his friends gave,

but dont be discourage my du bee,

u'll have me around always to give you my support.

Dont be discourage for what your family says

show them and prove it to them they are wrong.

Prove it to your aunt,

u can support a living for you and ur family by not only working in a bank.

You have all faith from me,

You will do it my love

I can foresee after my sch starts,

we will spend lesser time together,

but dont worry my love,

i will be more understanding towards you

i will pump in more faith, more paitence, more love

to keep us going.

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You can do it my love

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I know you can.

You are on the right path,

thou there might be some discouragment

i know u will make it big one day

and that day will be soon to come.

You work hard in order to secure our future

building up our future together

building our future home

building a family

its tough

but one day when we really do it,

all the hardwork will be worth while

I see the responsibility in you after so long,

I am so happy

I really feel secure

In the past,

We may be sleeping within an arms' length

but i feel the insecure

Now, we hardly spend that kind of time together

but i felt we're so close together

We will work together as one.

We'hv attained a different level in us

we are one step closer to our goal

I know towards our goal,

We will help each other

always hand in hand.

The giant rabbit

It may look not as giant but in fact it is.

Its at the basement of centrepoint orchard.

it measures at least 35 long.

A great day out

Had a great shopping and dinning out. I woke up early in the morning and went down to my music school to teach my new student celab violin that hyperactive child is driving me crazy taking a violin bow as a sword, pretty usual for mischievous little boys to do that and contribute to more broken violin bows. Headed down bugis to meet up with Alan for lunch. In the meanwhile waiting, went to some shopping alone and had gotten myself 2 dresses and a pair of heels.

Pasta at shaw centre was worthwhile, reasonable pricings and great taste.

The Giant Rabbit

Saw this giant rabbit at centrepoint pet shop,

Indeed a giant rabbit,

The enormous 4 month old rabbit weigh at around 5 kg

OMG its the size of my baby shih Tzu

Took a picture of that,

But my cell phone's batt is running low and couldnt shw it to you guys.

Met up with Stacy together with Alan at Tangs Studio,

We found ourselves a comfortable area at the mac cafe and start our conversation which lasted for a couple of hours.

Indeed for every met up with Alan there are things to learn from him,

Things he said usually enriched my knowlegde.

We talk about everything which range from

economics to properties to daily applications to life and many more.

We talk about Tsunami, giant waves from fall ice berg which cause elephantine waves which cross to about 100 metres above sea level.

Tsunami wave ranked the 3rd and 2nd are those seen in the movie the perfect storm.

Dinner time

Xian came down to meet up with us after work and i buy her dinner as a belated birthday treat

Xian is doing property and indeed she had got much of valuable advises from Alan and i suppose it should be educational to her.

Thanks my buddies and friends, you guys made great company.

The Face Black Black Fund

The 10 dollars Fund

His words didnt hold, less than 3 days our bet had already been concluded

I have got an pending 200 bucks in my Face Black Black fund.

Today is also the day, he asked me to marry him.

How would i not want to get married to the person i love?

I can tell he is afraid to meet my parents especially my dad

he feels that he cant give me a secure living at the present moment

of course i would want to be the person whom he will to spend the rest of his life with

It wont be easy my dear tong tong,

Living together isnt easy

We have got plenty of love for one another

but patience should be plenty as well

understanding should be plenty as well

We will need to compromise

At the present stage of what we are in,

let build these up bit by bit

In the future there might be better people we meet out there,

a marriage doesnt stop any of us upon meeting these people

more attractive, mesmerising

A marriage doesnt give us any excuse of not falling for more attractive people

Everyone should have the right concept for marriage

its not to hold you on upon searching for the better

but the tell you that you have already gotten who you would think

is the best in your life.

Do and dont

There is alot of things i would want to do and many donts i wouldnt want to persist anymore. I will love myself more and have more things to occupy myself with rather than doing some stuffs which others may find it silly enough for a commoner would want to do and stress over it. I would not want to look into his phone or neither being so worried about whatever things he want to do. It concerns me, but its out of my reach to reform anything i have come to realise it. The more i care, the more unhappy and argument it will just lead us to.

I 'hv come to a conclusion nothing will change. I'll just have to accept it or to leave it. In my case where i have choose to accept it, i'll have to stop anything which will cause more miseries to myself or to others. I do not have the power to do anything about whatever it is.

I have been updating my joy and realise its half gone, may it be crap or nonsense i wrote in there as much as i m concern we cannot compare.

He is doing the best he can and its utterly unreasonable for me to ask for more and more. If that could be the best he does, i should be glad he treats me better than anyone he came across in his life. Learning to accept the flaws and accelerate on the better points he had.

Thats life it would be miserable if one keep comparing with the past and draw a benchmark which makes up to a good or bad. Its up to ones ability. Its up to my ability as well.

All i wish is to reduce any misunderstanding we could possibly have. Try not to pin point onto the bad where initially at the start of the relationship no one would want to do that. Its a personal liking and style one would like to be comfortable with, no rights or wrong. I just hope to move on towards a better future with more selfless and less selfishness in every phase of it.

Why is that so?

Why is that so? Seeing my dear friend suffering and i cant help or do a thing. Why do guys like to jump into a new relationship when the previous one is still hanging in the mid air? Seeing her being so troubled, I told her to leave thats the only thing i can help not to feel hurt further. I know she is hurt, tired and she feels that she is just a life bouy. I really have got no idea how to console her. She said whenever she feels like talking, he says he's tired and do not wish to talk anymore. She had got no idea why she is being entangled into such situation. And it's usually the guy who dont want to be firm and make a decision or outcome to it, they just like to hide, or drag it along. In the end we're left the ones suffering. Indecisive. She is once like me, believe, understands, trust, loving yet the nice ones ended up getting hurt.

From the past till now

Its true that dwelling against the past doesnt heal,

Things had happened

Past tense and done with

All we can do is to change what we have now

instead of desolating what we do not have

Let change and mend the imperfect in the past

We wil have to build our own

With love and care

paitence and understanding

Let it live like never before

Together we will see a graceful ending

Nurture and love it.

Black - Adopted frm sweetzwine

Unhappiness and misery are the least I should bring upon people
be it direct/ indirect..such behaviour should not be tolerate..
Perhaps without my incompetence, they're happier and less frowns..
I'm sorry for being such a trash..I MUST CHANGE..
If all else fail, I fail as a human..
I ought to vanish then..

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Now i know Im incapable to love .
Insensitive.
Stupid.
LOW IQ n EQ
IMPATIENT
CLUMBSY
SHORT TERM MEMORY.
INTACTFUL with LANG.
HOW USELESS CAN I BE.

FLAWS.FLAWS.FLAWS.

She wants to hide

THE DARKEST HOUR.THE MOST TROUBLING MEMORIES.FEAR. HOPELESSNESS. DESPAIR.

She is hopeless, she cant find the reason to be happy anymore. She just cant stop tearing. She lives in fear where there is no one she could turn to. She no longer dare to dream anymore. To her, to hope and dream is something unreachable.

It was darkness. Her life is no longer colourful what she see is only grey and black. She will just live in her own world, shiver and tremble. She is totally wrecked, physically and emotionally frail. She imprison herself in the world of hers. She has got scars all over her emotional being. Living in solitude world she isolates herself from the constantly moving world. She is left standing alone the pouring rain the tears just cant stop falling. She is defeated like the 5 swords, she stabbed herself hard, but no matter how hard she try to stab, nothing overcomes the fear and emotional pain she had in her. She is left dying. She will just get drown in her sorrows. She dont even have the strength to armoured her up anymore. She will just stand alone in isolation all by herself.

The broken vase

I had a beautiful dream last night, i dreamt that i fell from the balcony of merchant court hotel and i was crushed. That was the night i escape to a solitude world of just myself. I hide myself from everyone around me. Cut off all the contacts. It was so vivid i can feel the moment when i leaped off the platform of the balcony. At that moment my heart drenched i was in a beautiful white dress, i was dolled. I sit alone under the sky of stars looking across its the river and people screaming when they were being threw off the reverse bungee. I remember every single detail. I was in room 132. Sipping my wine as usual tuning onto class 95 on the hotel tv, i started writting non stop on the papers provided. I went to the balcony for a smoke, I pulled the door open, cold wind gust across my dress. I walked up and climbed up the balcony, closes my eyes. I took a deep breath. Opened my eyes i looked up a sky full of stars. I balanced myself on the platform and looked down, all of a sudden i felt freedom. I threw my wine glass down and sees it smashes when it hits the edge of the building, i smiled. The wine splashed all over, i took up my wine bottle and drink it directly from it dazing look across the river at people partying in the club. I smashed my wine bottle against the wall. It brokes it cut my hand, wrist and elbow. Blood flows out, i smiled. I held my wrist harder, blood dripped onto my white flawless dress. I leaped across hoping i will gain freedom and i did.

To and fro and to

Woke up in the morning realised i didnt call to wake my tong tong up, i jumped up grabbed my cellphone and smsed him immediately. Thank god he is awake le. He told me he's going down to office to sign the contact and will be meeting me for lunch and do some shopping together. It was 10am in the morning. I foresee that it will take at least a few hours but tong tong assured me that he can leave after he signed the contact. Well since he put this up i wont want to object him even thought i know its quite impossible to sign any contact without briefing. He is the kind of person, he believed in himself too much and at times wont even take others advise into consideration.

He told me off saying why didnt i tell him that. In my mind i was wondering, would u listen? didnt i told u lets meet at 3?

This suddenly came into my mind. He told me his family has gone no objection for him to stay out late, go drink or what so ever. Hearing his dad nagging at him for drinking so frequently was that so? They told him off ample times, its obvious he just turn deaf ears.

For so many years of naggings for the things he did, did he change? the answer is no. Knowing me for less than a yr, my words do hold a weight in him? I dont dare to say. Sometimes yes and sometimes no.

He feels that I am stupid. I dont say something smart but i say things due to my past experiences. There's quite a number of occasions where he doubt my ability. Those words really do cut. He doubt with my stupidness how the hell i got into the university. He did say that to me. He used to say i use my wit on a different matter. Frankly speaking i dont really wish to use my wit on u. Its real scary when a woman would wan to start to plot and narrates a story.

He can be very loving at times, he's sweet, he pours water for me, pat pat me to sleep, bring me herbal tea, peel da hao da for me and many many more. I really love those time.

He does have his silly times but did he realise did i once complain or grumble about that? He is the kind of person who would want pple to remind him of what is right or wrong, what he can do and what he cant. I wont do that just like how people around you did, I believe you are old enough to think and judge what is to do and not to do. I realised even by saying or telling you what, you wont take into account, so why waste my breathe. You know the pain when you do it, learn from it and not to repeat the same mistake again. So many years of ur parents shouting screaming and stuffs they dont reform you. So bottom line screaming and shouting doesnt help.

I hope i can be the one whom he will really grow up and be a man with. One day he will be sensible enough to tell me and show me, he has reform into a man, a better man who will care and love most importantly to think before he speaks.

I do not know will i be the woman who will be till the end with him but at least for the moment, i just wanna support him and be there for him. Maybe one day god decide to take me away without any warning.

E.G.O

Man with a huge ego

1.cant accept changes
2. cant adapt to environment
3. likes to grumble
4. listen to opinions but does nothing about it
5. turn deaf ears to naggings
6. high expectation of others
7.Give ample reasons for mistakes
8. dont admit they are wrong
9. self centered
10. selfish
11. cannot afford to lose face
12. dependent

Men and women, do u fall into this catergory?

A friendly advise,
A Big Ego makes a fall in many things,
Build regrets,
Its not edible,
Nor its priceless,
Its something not friendly at all.

Hi people, you will definately be more lovable, adorable and likable if you are willing to just reduce a few points i'hv just mentioned.

St James

Taken outside St James power house.
The crowd was surprisingly good yesterday, took a stroll into the boiler room and movita. Great music, but not so great people. Looks unfriendly to me. *Boo*

I was sitting outside power house and noticed a lady puking by herself at the side. Out of goodwill, i offered her some tissue paper. But that wasnt something nice, not even a look up or a thanks when she walked past me. *Another Boo* Super unfriendly crowd. I was wondering why my Tong Tong fancy power house so much.

I met Jas at power house and she asked me did anymore ever mentioned i look like michelle chia. Lol i told her nope, my figure sucks, and i beg she isnt that hairy as i m.

Mei was understanding and she went back home knowing i would want to take care of my tong tong pig.

All together

Maybe all together its a different story. I'hv heard stories of how my male buddies pamper their girl and how the girls show blissful look of happiness being dote by the one they love. Those kind of innocent love whom some of my friends to me is out of reach. My relationships often underline factor of the feel of being threaten.

I saw this :

Thanks for making caring for mi,pampering mi,spoiling mi, perfecting my life with lotsa efforts & surprises ,loving mi wholeheartly!


its so heartwarming they are coming to a year. They are great people, had been quite sometime not seeing them... just to let you guys know, i really miss you people.

Probably its just a different issue all together, maybe he's just not good in pampering his girl. Whenever i see how my friends wrote about their love life, they have got so much of wonderful occasions and surprises from their love. It can be simply a late night supper surprise. The coca cola surprise fridge from ping to sammi, a cold remedy hot tea in the middle of the night which cure every illness during a flu. I longed for the feeling to be pampered once again.

I do appreciate the piggy love pillow, the mama and baby gui gui, the effort he made to send me back, the time we spend usually either in a pub or at home, the time we used to stroll along his estate. I do love surprises, usually he gave me shocks more than surprises. When was the last time i was really pampered. Being pampered like a little girl.

Being with him coming towards our 6th month, there is alot of things i would want to do. Like bringing him to visit my " Yi yi" in the zoo, the gui gui and dugong at Sentosa, sitting with him at the most southern part of singapore closest to the milky way to admire the stars, catching a gimpse of fireflies, visiting a goat farm, fish for prawns, catching guppies at pasir ris park, feeding little tortoise at the botanical garden, breathing the fresh air in a park early in the morning, accompany auntie to the market poking smelly fish, playing happily in the rain, walk the dog together, hold a picnic session, laze around looking at clouds on the grass, sing ktv with just the 2 for us. So many things left undone.

I would want to start a scrapbook of places of joy, but its just not enough for me to begin with. In that case our moment of joy will be, the pool at toa payoh, his home, cineleisure cinema, PS couple lab, school, colour zone, a rubbish truck and the void deck you used to hold my hands and chat till dawn. In a period of 6 months thats what we do. Thats what we accomplish for apx 180 days. I really would want to spend wonderful moments with you. The moment we will always remember and make it reside in our heart for life. Being by your side when we used to party with a group of friend doesnt truely belongs to us, i longed to sit side by sit with you, sip the wine we'hv brought along to a sky of stars, a place where there is just the 2 of us. The memory of us being the lead. I hope i'll dream of it tonight and smile during my sleep.

Beach day

It was a real fun and relaxing day with my dear Joze, sipping beer and relaxing at the beach. With just the 2 of us we really did enjoy ourselves. Heart to heart talk of 2 leos.

Talking about 2 scorpios in our life, we see similarities in the 2 scorpios. They are both short tempered guy, love to drink etc.

Horoscope of a Leo
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All Leo's have high standards and they don't like to let themselves or anyone else down. They enjoy being seen as a person of substance and status, and prefer to be in a position to help others rather than approaching them cap in hand. Leo's pride would not allow them to live or work in a situation that they consider as 'beneath' them. They are far more comfortable working in an exciting area where they can jet off to glamorous places and influence the more mundane members of planet Earth. Leo's won't stand for being treated with contempt or ridicule, but they are very aware of other people's need for dignity, so they are rarely offensive or hurtful.
Leo's can become surprisingly downhearted on occasion, but they don't usually stay depressed for long and their confidence returns fairly quickly. The thing that saves most Leo's in hard times is their joyful sense of humour.
Leo's faults include impatience and a tendency to over dramatise problems. They become irritable when things go wrong and quite sarcastic when ill, under pressure or over-tired. Leo's live in the fast lane, working and playing very hard. However they must remember to build in some rest and recovery time. They can be pushy parents because they want their children to achieve as much as they have - and exceed it. Leo's encourage their children to become independent.
Leo's are generous and kind and will do anything to help others, especially their family. They excel as a family member and enjoy keeping in touch with relatives although are not the type to cling. As a marriage partner, Leo's are very loyal and dependable, as long as they're feeling loved and at the center of the family network. It is very unlikely for Leo's to have a fling simply out of curiosity, although if they are feeling undervalued and unloved by those around them, it may lead in that direction.
Leo's love the best of everything. They love to travel to smart places and to holiday in five-star comfort. Their values are traditional and although there are a few rogue Leo's around who seem to have no standards at all, these are untypical.

Horoscope of Scorpio
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Reliable, resourceful and enduring, Scorpios seem to be the strong men and women of the zodiac. But are they really? They can be nasty at times, dishing out what they see as the truth, no matter how unwelcome. Their own feelings are sensitive and are easily hurt but they won't show any hurt or weakness in themselves to others. When they are very low or unhappy, this turns inwards, attacking their immune systems and making them ill. However they have great resilience and they bounce back in time and again from the most awful ailments.Nobody needs to love and be loved more than a Scorpio, but their partners must stand up to them because they will give anyone they don't respect a very hard time indeed. They are the most loyal and honest companions, both in personal relationships and at work. One reason for this is their hatred of change or uncertainty. Scorpios enjoy being the power behind the throne with someone else occupying the hot seat. This way, they can quietly manipulate everyone, set one against another and get exactly what they want from the situation.
Scorpio's voices are their best feature, often low, well modulated and cultured and these wonderful voices are used to the full in pleasant persuasion. These people are neither as highly sexed nor as difficult as most astrologists make out, but they do have their passions, even if these are not always for sex itself, and they like to be thought of as sexy. They love to shock and appear slightly dangerous but they also make kind-hearted and loyal friends, superb hosts and gentle people who are often very fond of animals. Great people when they are not being cruel, stingy or devious!

Had a real fun night!

*Thumbs up* for zouk once again, i was accompanied by my favourite friend. It was rather empty when we first reach we had a slip of wine and looked down at the empty dancefloor with clubbers strolling in now and then. The reason why i love this place so much, its packed with friendly people all around may it be male or female. Its a place where i constantly see familar faces, gather friends from all over like how we used to hangout every wednesday night.

It great meeting Ryan again in zouk whom he happens to be Delun's campmate from the pilot division. Still remember that chalet Ryan organised and we had great fun during his birthday. We drank bottles of liqour, had our handmade sushi and he was forced to wear only his red coloured g-string carrying a hippo shaped birthday cake bought by his gf choyu. That was real fun!

~ At St James~

After zouk we headed down to St James to meet up with my beloved darling. I just cant stop hugging him. My darling is so addictive and i m totally mesmerised by him. His smile mean the whole world to me. We had supper at newton and we took a stroll back. That moment i felt so loved. Looking at our shadows we walked hand in hand and i'll never want to let it go. The feeling was so wonderful and i vow that i would want to keep this feeling of love till the last beat of my heart. Darling i love u so dearly. I really want to be with you for the rest of my life.

5 months being together

We watched spiderman 3 together today, and what flashed back thru my mind was on our first date when we watched deja'vu. He's so caring and considerate. He will shield me thru the crowd on the streets, ran back to his house to get his house keys,take me out for dinner at newton *smiles* that was so sweet and we were friends back then.

We had dinner at home, lazed around his room and went back after that. It was kind of late when we're at back around my estate.

I thought there will be still public transport, who knows i guess he missed the last bus to newton and he sounds pissed when he called. Probably i m the cause as i wanted to get my supper.

Loving him once again, hoping this will turn out better. With that little trust still unsure whether is it enough to substain. I am still unable to put on the stuffs that he gave me when we're so much in love those days back..

At times i still cant help,tears just rolled down in the middle of the night when the pain stuck me. I am still struggling within myself i tried not to show. My angels around me constantly remind me that Seven should be happy. I really didnt expect that to hurt that much.

He told me i do not have the trust in him, not only a little. I have really got nothing to say. I am still so wreck, still trying to pick up the bits and pieces. I just hope that the effort he gave will be constant. What i would want to see, its not yet to surface. I really wish that he will care more about the people around him. Listen more and talk less, his words do acts as a sword sometimes. It just cuts.

*Bad cough*

Having bad cough lately. The weather is lousy and dear friends do take care. Gotta to hit the beach someday next week after my mense. Its the start of the life of enjoyment. I love sch vacation. I was talking to my dad yesterday and he asked to join him in a tour to tibet. Yup and true enough he has got tons of leisure trip to fulfill and none of it taken into action at least for the time being *eye rolling* The Gold coast trip which he asked me to go get it booked from richard and he's settering the bill end of the month. Dad is just very fickle minded worst than a woman at times.

Approaching the fifth

We are approaching the fifth and, things are going on smooth through there are few hip cups along the way of healing. I'hv bought each of us a book of confession named Joy and Happyness. "Happyness" Happiness is never perfect. Just the the movie ' The pursue of happyness' Walking through the road of happyness, its bound to carry the foodsteps of tears and saddness. Walking through saddness isnt easy. I am trying to learn every steps i walked. To conclude myself a with a happier and the life i want to lead. I hope that he would be able to walk every single step with me. We had been falling and getting up and falling times after times.

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I happened to look through her pictures with him linked through her page. When i first saw her pictures, i found that she's really so sweet and cute. When i looked back now, doesnt look as it seems anymore. I start to ponder how sad was him when he forced himself to smile when he met up with me. The pictures of them, smiling so happily away, and now she's in the arms of the other. I know you'hv changed and you found someone whom u really care. I am glad. I saw those pictures, indeed reminiscing. Ultimately i think we can be only each other's rubbish bin.

Its been awhile

It had been awhile since my com crashed and i made no intention to have it done due to my busy schedules. There are drastic changes in my life for the past week, tears, heartache, confusion, stress for exams and current love life. Everything seems crashing down upon me i was almost breathless. I tried to help myself a little by not adding more stress to my exams, the only means is to take everything a step at a time. I dont ask for much anymore. Hoping for something better doesnt help either. I'm still faithless. The dark side of me, i still do fear. The only little hope i have is, him intergrating into someone more caring toward everybody.

I would really like to thank the people around me showering me with so much of concern. I am glad that my life is surrounded by angels.