Day 362

Day 362

Times are getting difficult and challenges are coming ahead. In my family as well as in certain areas in my life. I am sorry that I have neglected a good friend of mine. I've been putting alot of time in my work as well as church ministry. But I am not apologising for loving God and putting God first. I love God and He is first in my life. God is even first before my family.

This may sound really unpleasant to many readers. Putting God in front of ur own mom and dad, ridiculars.

The reason is:

Because of the presence of God I carry in my family. I am the peace maker. I love my dad and mom of course. Because I placed God first, I will never want to upset my dad and mom in God's way. I am a good daughter to God the father and I am a good daughter to dad. I really walk the extra mile for my family, may it be just a beautiful handbag I blessed mom with, or a nice new wallet I gave dad. A wonderful nice shoulder rub on my dad. I show the kind of love to my family as instructed by God. I learn to make and create joyful home for my family.

I totally understand of how God wants me to be in my family.

When I put God first. God makes everything in place. Love in my family. A loving pair of parents and a responsible younger sister. We love each other in God's way.

It is always wonderful to love in God's way, for the human way can be really selfish. I dont want to walk that walk of a human way anymore. I really learn to put God first.

When every arguments arise in my family, between mom and dad, I am the peace maker. Blessed to be the peace maker. I carry the presence of God, I hold peace and love which will please God. I didnt hide inside my room when my parents are debating. In the past, I'll just walk out and let them quarrel but NOW, I hold peace within them. Talk nicely and showed them a solution. I am not the solution, but God is. He is the one who gives me calm and wisdom to resolve problems of my family. My dad to listen to me and my mom to fulfil what I've planned for the company. You know in the past, dad wouldn't even care a bit about my say. Blessed to be anoited when I speak the pressence of God in me. I hold the family in unity because God has taught me so, God and taught me how. Somehow, I turned into the counselor of my family. They trust God in a way, for God work through me.

When the devil attack my family, there is when I will go into my room, and bind them. Pray for peace, and hold steadfast of the promises of what God wants in my family. No one can take it away. Because God says and promised me, One in the household is save, so is the whole household. I will not let the devil take my family away from me! I pray for my family and I know and I know one day they will all come for salvation. My family can praise God and sing worship together as 1 heart 1 soul and 1 mind. Imagine one day hearing my dad saying his testimony of how God changes his Life. Dad is going to shake the world with his amazing testimony for God. Of course, many dads with the same thinking of my dad will come for salvation.

The only way to live a wonderful and prospers life is : Have a relationship with God. That is the ONLY WAY!

a) Dial 1800-I love you God: to God and he gives you a solution, you sleep is soundly without any worries

b) Dial friends hotline, talk for hours, problems still there. Put down the phone, you still feel as bad.

I felt sorry for last week. I let jealousy and evny in, I forgot about God. I forgot to put him infront of my problems. THEN. . .  I was unhappy for so many fwahhhhh fwahhahah DAYS.

I pray to God and seek him before anyone. Human make errors, human can make unsound decisions, but God dont. God is perfect and God dont make errors.

Yes, maybe some friends felt that they've lost me to Jesus Christ my lord. And No, they haven lost me because I am always there. As a friend so true I bear with my heart. Some felt a distant away, for I am close with my spiritual family, fellowship more with them more than I do with my usual who I always hang out with. The reason is, when I am negative, I want to hang out with the extremely positives. When I am down, I hang out with even more depress people, we dont help each other but feeling worst after that. To do good, I have to be extremely positive to encourage my dear friends who are not so positive. If I dont help myself, I cant help you.

Anyway I am back on form now.

It is not that I want to talk about God all the time. He is just a such good plate of delicacy, He is food of happiness, joy and hopefulness. I really want to share Him with everyone I love. You know, my mom is transformed so much after hearing the sermon. Even though mom do not go to church, but she hears sermon from me! Mom changed. She learned to care for Dad. Dad soften and he shows his love more often. 

Where's all these from. From God, from my prayers. When I thank God each time in church or in my quiet time, I tears, I am always amazed by God's awesomeness. He makes my family work because we love. That transformation comes from me. That transformation comes from my sister. My sister and I will pray together to God for harmony and unity for our family. We believe in the same God who create us. Elohim God. We understand, a prayer in agreement is a prayer in power. My sister and I had made it happen. Sister and I will pray for dad and mom to reignite in love once again. It is out of our control. But it is in God's control. God made it happen in my family, and he will do it onto yours too. 

If you will to ask me, well maybe God just dont want to bless me, God loves you because you go to church, do alot of things for God. That is why he blesses me. You think that is right? WRONG! God blesses me because I trust in him. I go to church not for activity basis nor serve because it looks good and atas. Because I love God I seek his presence.

God is a gentleman, he will not barge his way through your heart. He will knock gently. He will only take a place in whatever space you give him. If you gave him just a storeroom, he will not barge into your bedroom. But when the devil attack, you fight it yourself. You do not ask God why he is not fighting for you when troubles are here. You gave him a storeroom and keep him out of your bedroom. God can only fight for you, if you allow him to. If you want God to fight away your negative thoughts, you give God your mind. So he can fend for you.

For the past few days, like about 5 days, I really cried to God like yesterday during leaders meeting. Sorry God I've been struggling. I forgot to put you first.

The blessings is equivalent to trust in God. If you do not trust him, how do you expect him to bless you? If you ask me, why God never touch you and make you feel him. I want to ask you a question, have you allow him to come into your life and show himself up in reality.