Saturday, January 2, 2010

Day 4

I didn't expect that his news to be out so soon. Maybe things really didnt go according to his plans. I feel like a shadow ghost hovering over him. A skinny one somemore, and I hope I didnt scare him off with my " Yin hun bu san ". Maybe sometimes he will shiver and wake up in the middle of the night and say " Wth, why her again ". sorry if I gave such strong brainwave or shockwave. Slowly you will get use to it. I HAUNT YOU AH, then you will reply ; I HAUNT YOU BACK.
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I am tired liao not writing anymore. I want to go say my night prayers and go to bed.
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To be continue.....
. The most incredible dream on 1st of 2010.
Disclaimer: Sorry this is just human instinct, its just a dream anyway. Sometimes we call it a wet dream.
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I had the most incredible dream. Its a sexual dream and it feels like last night I HAD the best sex ever. *Eh, Don't laugh * It feels so amazingly real and in fact I have multiple, (multiple is an underestimated word to describe it) orgasm throughout the dream. This person I am having sex with is a someone I haven even come across in my life. I dont know who is he. Anyway its pretty normal as I always dream about unknown people. In my dream; He is a pan-asian, named Jamison and of course he is freaking good-looking. I don't really want to describe the whole process as it may get kind too triple X. But seriously, Fuck . . . Its too real, the feelings the motions and of course the orgasm. * For those who are interested to know more, give me a ring and I will gladly share with you how much I enjoyed during my sexual dream. Hahaa... Because this Jamison is just too good to be true and he told me he should be the gift from god to women.* I kept thinking to myself does such person actually exist ?
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Maybe this is what you will get at night when you tried to keep yourself physically away from sex, a total abstinence from it and forgetting you actually have a high sex drive. Anyway such dreams are pretty interesting as everything just happened in an imaginary boundary and its just so amazing. I know I am greedy, and I hope that Jamison visit my dream again tonight. This name Jamison will turn me on for awhile I think before the feelings he gave is forgotten in weeks to come.
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.Back to reality,
I had my start of the year service with the SMARTER goals, service was a loud bang today and Tan Ee Peng did a great job. After service we headed down to Oooshh to meet Parry and Sherry up before we head down to Schocolate again. We have a new dish at Schocolate and were there to try out the dish. But well, I still prefer the steak thou. With all the picture taking Allen took with myself and Madeline, in which i warned him not to tag it up on facebook. Allen said I looked like a traditional demure Japanese house woman with my dressing. I am wearing Victorian style hello -.- Probably my hairstyle today makes me look extremely decent and of course DEMURE. *dont puke*. We were talking about face slimming with the guys and botox naturally comes into the picture. Its great and nice to see guys being image conscious, because I feel it is normal and basic instinct to look good in both male and female. Introducing 3 more clients to Dr Yeap, and I should demand for better discount in future visits to her clinic.
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Went down to Singapore.Art.Museum to meet the girls up, I walked past cathay, hotel rendevous, kopitiam foodcourt, I cant help but to have memories of us. Its like walking through memorylane and I still remember the way you used to hug me at the traffic junction. I miss him and I know I will always do.
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.Thats it for today and its time for prayers: I am praying for health in him, well-rest body and a greater faith to walk on from days to days. More faith in every step he takes to move forward. Greater strength for him to create opportunities as he moves forward. Dont let the setbacks tie him down. I want him to wake up everyday seeing himself walking nearer and nearer towards his goals and to know I am always there blessing him with goodness. Good night to the one who fills my heart, the one I will love always =)
Grace

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