Day 8

Day 8

I think blogger is making me dumb as I don't even know how to express in speech even to the person I love of what happened. Called him, but I dont know where to start from. Those silly family disputes I had in which I've return whatever I have or own now to my dad in a hotheaded arguement 2 days ago.Seriously I really do not know how can a father look down so much on her own daughter. How can a father be so crude to list down and accused me of how much he had spent. He will complain that he spent so much of bringing me for expensive overseas trips and blah blah when in the first place I didnt even ask for this kind of luxuries. Accused me that he had spent so much money of me, learn music but seriously I pay for my own lessons all along during my poly days. I hold 2 jobs during poly days to upkeep my expenses as they are just too high. Pay for my own trips overseas etc. When I told dad that whats wrong of paying on my own for the things I want? He will get even more mad and say, grow up already, know how to answer him back. He will then shout that no one understand him everyone is going against him. -.-" How to understand him when he is such a weird old man.

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I have decided to move out of my comfort zone. I will be on my own and I just have to move on with no choice. Do not know how or when can those heartache ly left in me stop or give a pause but I believe this is the anchor point of my life, because nothing has been as painful as this is. Fan si ren le la. * That chou chou ly also * I dont know how solve this puzzle, dont know how to tell myself to not love him lei.

Then question mark question mark lor. ? / / ? / / ?.

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These 2 man in my life are my biggest problem. An old one and a young one. *shake head*

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