Day 6 and 7

Day 6

I was engaged for the whole day and I didnt realise that APM is freaking like next Tuesday. I need metres of brown cloth to wrap Steph, myself and Eileen up like pocahontas. I missed my meet-up with Cindy and went off to meet Arvin up for some casual dinner. Had few glasses of wine sent Arvin home and headed down to upper bukit timah road.

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Eventually Andy drove down to hush me home, bought me kinder joy surprise and a lollipop. Andy is a great and nice brother. He will scold me and hit my head to wake me up from my stupidity. I told him that I would really like to attend Cindy's Wedding but afraid to bump on ly since he is the Amcee of the wedding function. Andy drove me home and forbaded me to go out of the house.

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During early morning I still headed out of my cozy bed and headed down to ly's place although I really do not want to see him so soon. I do not know how to face him and I do not know what kind of feelings should I carry to see him again. I am nobody in his life and he dont need me at all. It seems like he've ruined my life, but on one end of me, I will still want to move on in life quietly praying at a little corner. Or maybe forget him with the help of hypnotising.

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I hate it when sunsets call because I dont want to see him either. I told him off and said that I have got nothing to do with him since very very long time ago. Nothing is going to happen anymore and I've made it so clear to him years ago. I really do not know what is his mentality and I really do not understand what makes him so persistant? I start to hate him since 2 days ago when he disturb my dream of Jamison. And somehow Jamison didnt visit me again anymore lor.

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Day 7

I just want him to be happy. I want to pray for him to be blessed with peace. I did a long prayer for him last night in tongues, I do not know how to express how I feel and what I can do. But I believe god will perform miracle to enlighten and shine on the path for us to take. He has his unspeakable inner troubles as well, I understand. But sometimes he auto-reset too fast and I just couldn't adapt.

Grace