Hillsong - Hosanna (High-Quality)

They are Hillsong United!

A new generation waking up revival all around the world.

A generation rising up to take their place with selfless faith.

We see a near revival stirring as we pray and seek,

we are all on our knees,

God, we are your children,

children of the world.

Music thats touches the lives of people,

some songs can make you cry and some songs make you feel.

How wonderful a God who creates music through human.

I see the king of glory coming out from cloud of fire.

I see his love and mercy washing over all my sins.

A faith that is so strong,

A love which is so real.

We believe in transformation.

Heal my heart and make it clean,

Open up my eyes to the things unseen,

Show me how to love like you have loved me.

Break my heart for what breaks yours,

everything I have for your kingdom's cause,

All I am searching for is for eternity.

Hosanna, Hosanna

Praise you lord.

Hosanna in the highest.

Each time I finish listening to this song,

God will ask me this question.

My daughter, as you willing,

for me to break you into piece again?

Father, I am willing,

because I trust you,

I understand that nothing new can be form without breaking the old.

It is going to be painful,

but I know

no world class ceremics can be form without moulding and intensive burning.

God I am willing and I am at your call.

Your grace will be always sufficient for me to overcome.

I understand lord, brokenness is power.

All great man comes from brokenness.

God I want to be one of them.

I am willing to be break.

God promised me a day 390 in the book of ezekiel

I do not know what does that means.

We'll see when that day come.

Planetshakers at Festival of Praise 2010

I always want to blog about this Festival of Praise.

This is Festival of Praise 2010 last year.

One the the greatest concert I've ever attended,

I was literally jumping with fellow strangers all beside around me!

There are auntie, young people and old people!

Festival of Praise is not City Harvest church,

its a 3 full days of praise and worship from christians all over the world!

All the churches in Singapore!

It is really awesome because the Lead is Jesus.

I never thought that being a christian can be so happy you know.

I can dance and sing with strangers from other churches, sharing the same joy in loving Jesus.

It is in indoor stadium, packed filled with Christians.

The presence is so real, you tears in his presence.

The realness is, you feel so comfortable even you are in a pack of people you dont even know.

I really cant wait for Festival of Praise 2011 to come.

God, please bring hillsong UK to indoor stadium this July 2011.

If possible I will really want to attend a whole 3 days of praise and worship in Festival of Praise 2011.

 

and you ask me why am I so excited for church every single week without. Full attendance for the past 1 year till today!

 

It is my home, a home I get recharged,

get back into life,

throw all my worries of the week to God.

 

To sing and dance,

to give my tithe and offerings to God in which he mutiply back to me in blessings.

 

Next time if you happened to see me in my home church,

dont be too surprise that I am hoping, dancing around with that big smile and laughter on my face,

I do not know how to hide my joy each time I set into his pressence.

 

God is Joy, he alone is call Love.

You just feel all the happiness when he gets near you!

 

I met alot of my old friends in church,

They are so surprised to see me in church, dancing and singing.

My poly friends, my ex colleagues, my uni friends.

 

Believing and trusting my God will let you feel his realness and pressence like how he made me feel.

 

One day, you will be sitting next to me in church.

You'll be singing praises with me in FOP.

You'll be dancing in joy for you've found a love so real and true.

 

Freedom - Christian City Church

Pastor Phil's church !!

The C3 band !

Day 368

Day 368

We went to the car showroom yesterday and this is the mega wonka chocolate bar we are driving off next week

A very big bar of wonka chocolate indeed.

This bar of wonka chocolate is much bigger than the previous car we drove.

and then, Dad told Shawn to show me this

B class

1.6 cc

Do you think I am getting a new B class for myself ?

Ta Da ~ ~

NOPE !

I do dare to accept it either,

thanks and thanks not !

and then I pointed Shawn to

this  . .  . .

E Class Coupe

Selling at $240,000 with Car of Entitlement

same price as the bar of wonka chocolate.

For a 2 door car, nasty insurance of S$8,000 for myself.

My first reply from Dad.

No 2 doors cars for you . .  heh,

But when dad starts test driving,

guess what. . .  its so funny . . .

Their merc technology ensuring that your hair wont get messy even when you open top.

Hair wont fly all around the place.

Hahahaaa . .  Hair will not fly all around due to its in sucion technology or something.

If the sun gets too hot,

on your seat aircon.

It is not those car aircon u see.

like this

Not some kind of aircon nob like this,

or the kind of aircon you maybe thinking of.

The aircon is built inside the seats you are sitting on lar . .

The seats will cool off itself and aircon comes out of your car seats.

Heh. . . Amazing!

So its not going to be warm at all . . .

Anyway, I will not allow anyone to pay for my car, nor installment nor whatever kind of incentives.

Not my dad and not anyone else.

I will rather take a public transport than to drive in that sense.

I can't afford it then I don't.

I calculated my cost of driving a Merc coupe E200 convert.

Road Tax/insurance/parking etc. etc . . . .

After a downpayment of $80,000

Servicing a loan of 5 years, installment of $2500 a month plus whatever insurance and road tax.

Make a calculation of how much I should make a month to have the ability to drive that car ?

Awwww

Today my best friend told me something. She said this to me, no matter how hard I tried to date someone, nothing is going to come fruitful. Because I am never open up. I have never move away from ly. She is my best friend and she really know me inside out, upside down.

She spoke this to me: Even though one day, ly moved on, got married, have kids or whatever, she knows I cannot move on in that area as well. I want to open up, but things just do not happen we want them to happen.

To surprise some of my regular readers who knows me. You know, I went on a movie date with someone... To somebody, a movie with someone is nothing. Towards me, its a very big thing. Because most of you guys know I dont do that. I went on a movie date with Elx, I tried but well I just freaked myself out and freaked my friends out who got to know that I went on a movie date.

Anyway, its not working . . . . . I cant . . .

Simply, I just do not know how to fill others in when the whole of my heart is taken.

At times I look at all my lovely friends around me. They have someone whom they are working hard for, someone I know is working hard of them as well. Working hard to plan a future, a future with well family, children and different goals in life.

Each time when I tell my friends that I will be a mother one day. I will get 2 kind of responses.

1. Every woman will be a mom one day with the one you love.

2. Those people who knows me really really well. Nah, thats really impossible to happen on you.

On one end, it is the most natural and simplest thing to happen in nature.

On the other end, that is never going to happen to me.

The kind of odds I am playing against is totally or absolutely close to less than zero. I have all the odds against me, but why am I still in that strong believe. I really cant figure that out myself too. If you will to ask me when will I be giving up?

I give you my answer now.

Giving up is not in my dictionary and it is not an option or choice for me . . . .

for, the last person I will want to lie to is myself.

Because I do not want to lie to myself, I will not want to betray my own heart. Isn't it better to choose an easier alternative out by loving someone else? Why do I have to make my life difficult by choosing the odds of close to an absolute zero? If I can choose who to love and who not to, life will be so much easier for me. 

Because I do not want to go against my own heart, for I know if I do, I will confirm plus chop regret it in later part down my life.

What happened today is even more hilarious. Guess who asked me out for a date? Who asked me to be his girlfriend? Even weirder. Someone I've known for so long. We used to date each other many many years back then, but not to the extend of a relationship. Used to like him quite abit back then. He is not a bad guy, I know him inside out. Told him very frankly, dont treat me as a life jacket, I am not your emotional fill in. I am not looking for a boyfriend, I am looking for a life partner who knows what it responsibility. I do not want to carry any emotional baggage leftover by his ex girlfriend and I am not someone to fill in your emptiness. 

Dont misuse familiarity with love. Dont use sympathy as love. Dont use emotional fill in as love. Dont take loneliness as an excuse to invite someone into your life. Most importantly dont get deceive and mis-concept lust to love. Dont mistake companionship to love.I am very clear about such issue after my relationship with chou chou.

To whoever God sent to walk into my heart in the future, I am really sure, God is sending love and not all of the above I mentioned in red.

Whoever God will send to walk with me for the rest of my life, I am so certain, if you can open my heart once again, it must be through God. Even ly wouldnt stand a chance if he hasnt walk through the gate of God to me. Because you know I will avoid ly at all cost, for we cannot be together anymore if it is not from God.

If I wouldnt even give a chance to a man I still love so much if he is not from God, will I even give chances to someone whom I do not love and not from God.

Even if I am single till the age of 90 years old at my deathbed, I wouldnt regret for I do not trade my love for benefits nor any of those mentioned in red.

I didnt give up in love, for I will not give up Jesus. Jesus is love. Believing that all things eventually work for good for those who love God called according to his purpose. I believe, Jesus is the author of my love. He hold it secure in his mighty hands. Amen.

Day 367

Day 367

Wisdom

There are 2 kind of wisdom

1) Human knowledge, reasoning, philosophy.
2) The wisdom that comes from God.

When we talks about human wisdom;

Human wisdom is talking about human knowledge, and when human knowledge ignores God, it only highlights our problems because, it cannot provide answers that need an eternal perspective and solution.

In my search for life's meaning as an experiment. I tried pursuing pleasure. I start selfish indulgences. Appearance clothed with worthless designers items, well food and wine. Increment of knowledge in Arts and music. Attended seminars over seminars for personal interest. Travels and activities. Human love relationships. Philosophies in life. Vain money search in career. Extravaganza pursue in life especially those days in school.

But none of the pleasure I sought can give me real satisfaction of what I am seeking.

Some, or I should say MANY ! of the pleasure I sought were wrong though some were worthy but even the worthy pursuits such as education and music were futile. When I pursued them it turns out into an end in themselves.

I learned to look beyond activities to the reason we do them.

Is your goal in life to search for meaning, or to search for God who gives meaning to the things we do?

In certain months, I bring home 5 figure fat paycheck, I was happy for I have gotten more options in life. Having money in life do gives us more options I really cant deny it. But I understand, not everyday is a happy Sunday. My satisfaction fluctuates as the months go by. I realised unless God protects my wealth, gives me His wisdom to create more wealth in terms of rightful and sound investments, rightful givings to life constructing work to the society. So Unless the Lord protects me, in a whole, if not, what I do, turns in vain. Everything seems to be back to zero.

My bank account is a good example. Up and down, Up and down, Up and down ! As I examined my projects of life and goals, what and where is my starting point? What is my motivation? How long can my motivation last?

Heard of Anthony Robins? Attended his course? Millionaire Mindset? How long can these motivations last?

After years of vain seeking and searching. I found out that without God as my foundation, all I have lived for will one day turn useless to me. It is like:

Life chasing after winds of life. . .

We feel the wind as it passes, but we can't catch hold of it, or keep it. In all of our accomplishments, BIG ones, small ones, our good feelings are only temporary. Security and self worth are not found in these accomplishments.

Sometimes during my quiet time with God, I think about what do I consider worthwhile in my life - where I place my time, energy and money. Will I one day look back and decide that these, too were life chasing after wind?

So, how to build my life not on perishable pursuits or rather on the solid foundation of God. Then even when one day God says, give those perishable things away, I still have God. Who is One whom I really need in my life. What do we really need?

Because knowledge has its limits, and the most important knowledge is found in knowing the infinite God. When you have a real relationship with God, you see what is beyond infinity. You cannot see the end of God's wisdom.

Personal Thirst and Satisfaction . . . . .

Personal satisfaction by itself is empty because we are alone in the enjoyment we receive. Whai is your attitude about what you do? If your goals are based on making only you feeling satisfied, then you will find yourself empty, seeking one thing after another. Thinking when my goals is to serve God and the people he puts in my life. That will be then I receive and experience a full life.

Serving all my clients God brought to me. Meeting people who were given by God to me to change their life. Hard work done by proper motives brings life. We must work hard and be responsible for the physical and spiritual well-being at the same time. If not we will be unhappy all the time, blaming all the time, offended all the time, complaining all the time about Life!

We can never be completely satisfied with earthly pleasures and pursuits because, God has created us in his image and has planted something in us. God has planted Eternity in us. This means that we have

1. Spiritual thirst

We question, when we feel sad, we seek for answers in life. We ask why and we do not know why!

2. We have eternal value

We keep looking for the real value in ourselves, it seems that in our life, we always optimise our potential " THINKING". We will not reach an end. Because the value in each human composition is of an Eternal value.

So, what is the purpose of life . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Purpose in life starts with whom we know, not what we know or how good we are.

We have to know our true identity

who we really are

It is impossible to fulfill your God given purpose without knowing who you really are

What authority do we really have in life

But apparently . . . .

There are serveral contradictions concerning God's control of the world

Because . .

1. There is unfairness where there should be justice

2. People created in God's image die just like the animals

3. No one helps the oppressed, no one led the lost to the truth

4. So many people are motivated by envy and jealousy

5. People are lonely

6. Recognition for accomplishments are temporary

So it is how we show ways towards the problems of our lives yet still, keeping our faith with an everlasting God. This is the life I live! BUT, This life is not all there is, yet even in this life because we are limited and cannot explain some things through logics, we pass judgement on God because we can never know the depth of God's wisdom.

Therefore it is easy to use contradictions as excuses not to believe God exist.

If our lives are created by God drawn on a piece of paper. The life line is drawn by God, the mountains in our lives is drawn by God, the ups and downs are drawn by God. You must be feeling so imprisonated. God controls everything. The best part is, do you know that God is that piece of paper as well. God picks up that piece of paper and he can wobble it as well. Which is why, what happens in our lives, we seems to be in control, yet not.

Because God has planted eternity in a man's heart which is why, everyone has an unique purpose in God overall plan. Yet we canot discover God's purpose for our lives by our own efforts, but through building a realtionship with him seeking his guidance.

He knows best and I trust him with all my heart and soul. Because I saw Him as the line on the paper, the artist of my life, the colour of my line and most of all he is the paper himself. How wonderful God is.

Some relate God as destiny, some as fate, who is God to you ?

Are you now using your life as God would have you to? Do you see it as a gift from him?

God is my father. My best friend. My guide. My refuge. My shelter. My trust. My faith. My love. My teacher. My resting point. My first

My H.O.P.E

Day 366

Day 366


Many people tend to feel restless and dissatisfied. Sometimes we can’t help but to wonder that if are we in God’s will, why am I so dissatisfied?



What is the meaning of life?


One day, when I look back on it, will I be happy with my accomplishments?


Months after months, why is happiness so short-lived?


Why do I feel burned out, disillusioned and dry at times?


What is to become of me one day?


Once a wise man of the history; King Solomon talks about the testing of Faith, therefore challenging us to find true and lasting meaning through a higher being named God. As like Solomon did his, we should learn to take a hard look at our own life. Most of the time we fall into disillusion.


Sometimes I cant help but to ponder over, perhaps God is asking us to rethink about our purpose and direction in life just like the wise man king Solomon whenever problems arises.


Does this sounds familar?


Why this problems again?


Ever wonder why so divorced couples faced the same problems again and again? Because the root problems is never resolve in the first place.


Some people just wondered and cursed. Farked, why am I in such a rundown again? Why am I such farked up relationship again? Why? You are still you, it is just the person that you've screaming at or hurting changes his/her name. Same problem different spouse. So if you are thinking that, I just need a new girlfriend or boyfriend, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE right? Wrong!

In fact every relationship gives you a rundown in the imperfect nature of your character. Your past hurts, your past regrets, your past disappointments. They surface when you opened your heart to love. Likewise for the chou, for me . . . once he found out that he somehow opened his heart and started to love. He ran away from it. Once love tries to open your heart, it not only open it to recieve, it open up its old wounds at the same time.

But, well old wound will not heal unless you take them off and learn to bless it with true love. It is like dressing up in an old dirty t-shirt, you wouldn't get any cleaner by putting on a new t-shirt over your old dirty t-shirt. You'll get sick infection with that dirty t-shirt wearing inside your new t-shirt.

The logical correct way is the take off your dirty old t-shirt, go for a shower and put on a clean one. But many people tend to wear new t-shirt overlayering their many dirty t-shirts. They eventually led themselves into skin infections.

The t-shirts are all relationships in human. Layer by layer of repression and disillusion, you will lose yourself. Regrets over regrets, hurts over hurts, resendment over resendment. No matter how strong or happy you may potray yourself in, you cannot face yourself. The worst lie is to lie to yourself, decieving yourself that you are happy.

You see ample of those faces in a club.

Life experiences are not always happy. But the world tells us to demand happiness, and do all we can to attain it. This makes us create our own personal satisfaction to achieve our chief goals in life.

But how many of us finally realised this; True and lasting happiness cannot be achieved. Happiness is an elusive goal because people and circumstances change too quickly. I totally understand this. It happened in my life real and hardcore real. People change, circumstances changes, situations changes at one snapped. I turned into some kind of "planned" Tsunami victim I dont even know why.

Walking out of that crazy situation, I kept seeking for truth, the realness of what is happiness. i finally found my happiness that is God himself. Realising and convicted that ALL things under the sun changes, but God can never, because he is faithful.

After walking and circling for so long, I finally realised what happiness is. Happiness is not short-lived. It is not just a moment of joy, it is everlasting love and comfort.


In the past what chou and I had been seeking were short-lived happiness. It seems to be so blissful and happily lovey dopey. That happiness is tagged by this price named Fear.

Chou is afraid, I'm afraid, afraid of uncertainty, fear of losing, I fear of losing him. In the past I often think that chou has got no fear, he is never afraid of losing me. He dont love me enough. He cant wait to shake me off his back, I am such a pain in his ass kind of thing.

Going through many trials and storms with chou along the years. The only time I feel him loving me was, he had decided to leave me for good, vice versa for me. The only time I felt this man loved me was we have to leave each other.




True love sets the spirit free

I finally found happiness. Not shortlived anymore. I finally found love in him, saw what exact love is from him and not pretendicious one. I held onto God's hand and walked away happily. I thank God for this everlasting happiness he leds me into. My love story has not end. It is just the beginning because, the moment I held onto the hand of God, I know I am on my way to prepare an earth shaking testimony to be shared in season to come. Till today, I have never stopped believing in my faithful God who spoke to me,

Thou art shall enter the door you left for him through love, God gave me a promise that I can trust, He shall enter the way you exit, and you exit because of love.

I was further reaffirmed by that rehma 2 weeks ago that served as a reminder to me during our suntec opening service.

The bible dictionary and study guide interpretation.

The meaning of Jesus means love.

The above sentence in double bolded and flashes back into my mind and I started tearing during our worship.

I was serving the congreation, walking around, I wasn't even thinking about anything but to keep people in order.

Thou art shall enter the door you left for him through Jesus, God gave me a promise that I can trust, He shall enter the way you exit, and you exit because of Jesus.

What an awesome God I serve who speaks to me. I was talking and guiding people around with uncontrollable tears flowing down my cheeks.. I was just super duper touched. I even forgotten about God told me that even until that day I was reminded once again.

I thank God for city harvest church, it was dark enough and none of the delegates realised I was having tears rolling down my cheeks all along.

Those are my precious tears of happiness, happiness that will last forever of a God who will never forget his promise to me even thou I forgotten them.

and guess what,

the context of the sermon on our opening is

Love

Pastor Kong is really a good friend of God,

because each time God says something to me in person,

somehow Pastor Kong will preach about it.

I was laughing when Pastor Bold-ed

The definition of Love = Jesus

God never fail to amaze me all the time!

PS: I realised my problem in writing. Not only in grammar, my punctuation is crapo too! Try to read my words slowly, you'll understand what I really mean; it is kind of aftermath effect.

and I think I am going to Colombo next month. Do WHAT? Be one of the refugee, I am skinny enough. * i think so * I am going for humantarian relief. And then I will go to Japan and then Penang. Away away away from April to June. I will keep myself way from Singapore during July and August as well. For July during my b'day. Refraining myself from calling up chou or something, August during his b'day.

First I can see myself running away from him until God calls me, its ok. You can see him again. I am done with my transformation. Tada! See the new man!

I know myself, if happens that one day I bump onto him on the street/somewhere/somehow/wherehow . . .  I will turn and runaway, take a cab and go straight home. Sometimes I see someone who looks like chou on the streets my heart skips a beat and was ready for all avoidance at all cost. So If God hasn't give me the permission to see him again. I don't think chou will ever see me again. I dont want to be a disobedient child to God anymore. I love you chou, but I love God more.

If one day, you realised that this blog has been abandon for more than a month and my numbers says : Number not in use. It means Thank God, I am back with Jesus Christ.

The only way

The only way to choose a life free from worries is to choose God's way. In times when troubles come, when your heart is weak, when situations come and you are totally out of control. You realised, you are in God's GPS direction system. All situations that are created in your life, is part of God trying to bring you back to the right track of your life. So you can receive blessings for eternal. No need to worry about your future, your family and your life. I choosed God not because it seems to be cool, I choosed God because he reaches his hand out for me and made my life back on track to receive a worry less life. Thank you God for redeeming me, when I choose to give up. 

when

When he is not by my side,  I went toys hunting myself. When he is not by my side,  I went playing in the arcade myself. When he is not by my side, I went shopping at Daiso myself. When he is not by my side, I play by myself, I play magic tricks to myself, I play UFO catcher by myself, I watch movies by myself, I go cycling by myself,  I walk by myself, I massage myself, I miss you myself . . . . . . But one good thing that makes me different and blessful.  In all things that I've done and Thought that I am alone, I am not alone. God is with me, all along, taking each step I move with me. If I haven have God with me, moving on with me, helping me and watching me each step I walk in faith trusting in God. IF, I still have chou chou by my side, I will still be living in fear, living in tears, living in doubt, living in a life so fearful of when will chou throw me away again. But today this will never happen anymore, for God told me he can never throw me away anymore for, God had rooted me deeply in his heart he cant abandon by his choice. One day, I really hope that chou chou will come to really know my lord my god, have a relationship with him, and there is when he will know that, he will be never alone anymore, he will not fear of his future, he will not do things he do not want to anymore, he will receive real freedom, the true first love from God and not me. God's love is so marvalous so real so wonderful. Feel it and you will understand what I meant. 

It is still

.Really love you.

I looked deep down in my heart,

you have not waver a little bit.

You stood there so fervently in my heart,

I do not know how to take your standings away.

I just learn to love you in a way which is pleasing to God my lord.

Love can be in this way.

Day 365

Day 365

• I am not dating anyone so dont speculate. Dah ~ No no no .

He is a good looking chap, after pondering and thinking. Cannot cannot. Heh, I dont want to make this happen, because I can foresee if we start dating each other I will be positioning myself into a temptation to commit something undesirable. Sometimes it is really better to avoid than to regret. I want find love not lust.

^ ^

I met someone again yesterday, I was talking to him and I couldn't take my eyes off his. He is so charismatic. He is really attractive, I was captivated by his knowledge. Impressed but no feel.

.Day 14 of quit smoking.

Crazy nasal congestion, ah shucks ~ ~ ~ But well, I am on the right track. I want to be a smoke free person.

.Linda

Linda is the lady boss of croc-rock. She committed suicide 2 days ago and I was at her funeral wake last night. Every single one was there. Elim and Suling were there, Irene ang was there too, meeting alot of familar faces at the funeral.

We were talking about when was the last time we met Linda, some haven seen Linda for many many years while some in months.

Dear all friends, I do not want to meet you guys in my funeral. I want to meet you, the people I love when I am alive not when I am dead !

So when I am dead, I am very certain that, I am not going to hold a funeral. So, call me up when I am alive not when I am dead ok !

Love God, love people.

Coca Cola

I told God last night in tears.

Father in heaven, I dont want to be just a can of Coke.

I dont want to be a can of sugar water.

I dont want to be in the generation for so long being just a can of coke.

I want to change lives, I want to impact lives.

I want to Impact live Life!

I want to be Iphone I want to be Ipad.

I want to impact live  Lives.

I dont want to be a can of sugar water.

I want to be a change maker.

Before I can do that Father,

Break me,

melt me,

transform me,

change me.

Renew my mind.

Cut me.

slice me.

I know that is really going to be painful,

but God I am willing to go through that.

I am willing to go through all the breaking,

all the difficulties.

Jesus I want to be like you.

Break my heart like what breaks yours.

I want to led a generation,

a generation of love.

a generation who knows how to care.

After Sunvale Avenue

Although the retail of Sunvale Avenue is closed,

our goal have not part.

We still want to be an impact to the society.

We transformed and changed.

Methods are different, but the goal is the same.

We are turning into organisers.

Sun Vale Avenue is conquoring a greater and bigger arena

We're turning really big this time.

God didnt want us to just work as a small retail . . .

We turn in dream maker,

rising entrepreneurs,

Thank you God for such big and wonderful ideas.

God will never shortchange my life.

We're not building just our dream

We're building and creating dreams of people who dare to dream.

Keep tune,

Dreams are only made possible when you dare to make it happen.

I truly believe within 2 years time,

Faces of myself and my sister will start appearing in entrepreneurs magazine

My ultimate Goal is not just a simple girlie like dream.

I want to be on cover,

I want to be on the cover of financial times,

on the young and rising,

I want to be famous for a good cause.

 *  *  *

I dont want to be a COKE,

I want to be IPAD!

IPAD!

The Noose, LuLu from China, Sichuan talks about boosting fertility rate ...

The Noose: Singaporeans complain all the time.

Day 364

Day 364

City Harvest and Suntec City

The incredible testimony of the couple about an extra martial affair. The great heart of love from her husband. Though their testimony I understand what is love and forgiveness. I salute the both of you, so truly.

They are one of the first pair of friends I know in bible college. I really see love in them. Especially when the husband hugged her on stage. My tears flows like water tap. The wife confessed to her husband about an extra marital affair she had 7 years ago.

The wife confessed during SOT last year to her husband about an affair she had 7 years ago. I really see true love. Our message for Suntec opening. I saw the love of her of confession and her confident in God. For the husband, forgiveness is the greatest love after all.

Like what Pastor Kong said, what is love? Love is Jesus. That is love.

LOVE is Jesus

I Love you = I Jesus you

^ ^

.I really do, I really do love you, very much.

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Tuesday

O'rite and today lunch with my diet of

: Red meat, potatos, milk, vege, egg ^^

I am looking for a swaveboard.

I screened through Toy 'r' us with Alx

Had some fun with toys and some kiddish stuffs.

I am a big kid myself.

We didnt managed to get my waveboard at Toy 'r' us,

Eventually . . . . .

Tada ~ ~

Dont know how to roll,

still learning how to stand on it.

Rox ~ ~ ~ I cant even beat Pastor Bob's son in that. . . Hahaaa

So alright, shucks it, back to my weights carrying of dumbbells,

Leg lift, cramped abs and rundown makeups/eye lines.

But Who cares.

Heh . . I love my butt.

and I want to be 300X better !

I claim it Amen !

11pm, time for some clam chowder and Marcoroni

incredible

I want to share an incredible true story with you guys later. I am so touched because, they are my friends and I didnt know this happened to them last year. I am amazed by the courage of the wife, and I was totally respect fully for her husband. Christina and I were crying, so touch . . . I tell you guys later. Her husband said, LOVE is forgiveness! And to love even more.

Day 363

I had a very funny dream last night. I dreamt that I went for plastic surgery. Not on my boobs. I dont need that anymore, they seems to grow up by themselves. Save alot of money on my ends thou. . . haha . .  I think I can eat my way up to a cup small C. Alright, keeping the boobs out of the picture, what I doctored on was my eyes and nose. I slited open my eyes and they went enormously big like japanese anime. I leveled my nose and make it propotional. Guess what happened in my dream, I rested for 3 weeks after my operation and saw myself after the surgery. wooo, nice !! You think I should I consider to go for one? Do my eyes first. hurhur hur... Or maybe I just pray to God like how I prayed for my boobs. heh . .   how much for an increase of cup size. Mmm It is about 3kg of faith. Pray to God, eyes .... get bigger, get bigger... No need doctors  i think.  No pain, no injections and no whatever.  wAH.... I got a feeling, Just as this goes by, Like evelyn, like perry, like sharon lOoking younger as we grow older!  I am going to take alot of pictures.  By the time I m 50, I look like 30 years old. How cool ! Heh, Oh, wu Chou Chou, hope you're well. In fact I can talk about whatever here I guess: Heh gOOd or Bad. He's nt going to Know Or see it anyway, I Miss you. I am really praying for you everyday, hoping that one day, you will come to know my God ::::  Oh people, Im going to Sri Langka to catch crab HEH.. Japan on hold for further information from pastor. Sri Langka is a humantarian trip, going to build toilet and dorm for our schools there. 5 days trip, I think so:::  Japan is a mission trip im not sure how long will I be there. Ya you know the earthquark, and the radiation stuffs. We're going to do some restoration work in the heart of the japanese. And then its Penang ! Jia YOU ! AND you know right, Dad, scold me ytd: for buying burberrys for him.. DEH::: .:.:: I showed him my Gucci shoes and told him, buy 2 got discount.!! You know I love shoes; Im eyeing for a pair of Tods loafers now, wish me good luck! Dude, if in house Is bidding for LV shoes again please let me know, I wanna get a pair of LV scandals.

Day 362

Day 362

Times are getting difficult and challenges are coming ahead. In my family as well as in certain areas in my life. I am sorry that I have neglected a good friend of mine. I've been putting alot of time in my work as well as church ministry. But I am not apologising for loving God and putting God first. I love God and He is first in my life. God is even first before my family.

This may sound really unpleasant to many readers. Putting God in front of ur own mom and dad, ridiculars.

The reason is:

Because of the presence of God I carry in my family. I am the peace maker. I love my dad and mom of course. Because I placed God first, I will never want to upset my dad and mom in God's way. I am a good daughter to God the father and I am a good daughter to dad. I really walk the extra mile for my family, may it be just a beautiful handbag I blessed mom with, or a nice new wallet I gave dad. A wonderful nice shoulder rub on my dad. I show the kind of love to my family as instructed by God. I learn to make and create joyful home for my family.

I totally understand of how God wants me to be in my family.

When I put God first. God makes everything in place. Love in my family. A loving pair of parents and a responsible younger sister. We love each other in God's way.

It is always wonderful to love in God's way, for the human way can be really selfish. I dont want to walk that walk of a human way anymore. I really learn to put God first.

When every arguments arise in my family, between mom and dad, I am the peace maker. Blessed to be the peace maker. I carry the presence of God, I hold peace and love which will please God. I didnt hide inside my room when my parents are debating. In the past, I'll just walk out and let them quarrel but NOW, I hold peace within them. Talk nicely and showed them a solution. I am not the solution, but God is. He is the one who gives me calm and wisdom to resolve problems of my family. My dad to listen to me and my mom to fulfil what I've planned for the company. You know in the past, dad wouldn't even care a bit about my say. Blessed to be anoited when I speak the pressence of God in me. I hold the family in unity because God has taught me so, God and taught me how. Somehow, I turned into the counselor of my family. They trust God in a way, for God work through me.

When the devil attack my family, there is when I will go into my room, and bind them. Pray for peace, and hold steadfast of the promises of what God wants in my family. No one can take it away. Because God says and promised me, One in the household is save, so is the whole household. I will not let the devil take my family away from me! I pray for my family and I know and I know one day they will all come for salvation. My family can praise God and sing worship together as 1 heart 1 soul and 1 mind. Imagine one day hearing my dad saying his testimony of how God changes his Life. Dad is going to shake the world with his amazing testimony for God. Of course, many dads with the same thinking of my dad will come for salvation.

The only way to live a wonderful and prospers life is : Have a relationship with God. That is the ONLY WAY!

a) Dial 1800-I love you God: to God and he gives you a solution, you sleep is soundly without any worries

b) Dial friends hotline, talk for hours, problems still there. Put down the phone, you still feel as bad.

I felt sorry for last week. I let jealousy and evny in, I forgot about God. I forgot to put him infront of my problems. THEN. . .  I was unhappy for so many fwahhhhh fwahhahah DAYS.

I pray to God and seek him before anyone. Human make errors, human can make unsound decisions, but God dont. God is perfect and God dont make errors.

Yes, maybe some friends felt that they've lost me to Jesus Christ my lord. And No, they haven lost me because I am always there. As a friend so true I bear with my heart. Some felt a distant away, for I am close with my spiritual family, fellowship more with them more than I do with my usual who I always hang out with. The reason is, when I am negative, I want to hang out with the extremely positives. When I am down, I hang out with even more depress people, we dont help each other but feeling worst after that. To do good, I have to be extremely positive to encourage my dear friends who are not so positive. If I dont help myself, I cant help you.

Anyway I am back on form now.

It is not that I want to talk about God all the time. He is just a such good plate of delicacy, He is food of happiness, joy and hopefulness. I really want to share Him with everyone I love. You know, my mom is transformed so much after hearing the sermon. Even though mom do not go to church, but she hears sermon from me! Mom changed. She learned to care for Dad. Dad soften and he shows his love more often. 

Where's all these from. From God, from my prayers. When I thank God each time in church or in my quiet time, I tears, I am always amazed by God's awesomeness. He makes my family work because we love. That transformation comes from me. That transformation comes from my sister. My sister and I will pray together to God for harmony and unity for our family. We believe in the same God who create us. Elohim God. We understand, a prayer in agreement is a prayer in power. My sister and I had made it happen. Sister and I will pray for dad and mom to reignite in love once again. It is out of our control. But it is in God's control. God made it happen in my family, and he will do it onto yours too. 

If you will to ask me, well maybe God just dont want to bless me, God loves you because you go to church, do alot of things for God. That is why he blesses me. You think that is right? WRONG! God blesses me because I trust in him. I go to church not for activity basis nor serve because it looks good and atas. Because I love God I seek his presence.

God is a gentleman, he will not barge his way through your heart. He will knock gently. He will only take a place in whatever space you give him. If you gave him just a storeroom, he will not barge into your bedroom. But when the devil attack, you fight it yourself. You do not ask God why he is not fighting for you when troubles are here. You gave him a storeroom and keep him out of your bedroom. God can only fight for you, if you allow him to. If you want God to fight away your negative thoughts, you give God your mind. So he can fend for you.

For the past few days, like about 5 days, I really cried to God like yesterday during leaders meeting. Sorry God I've been struggling. I forgot to put you first.

The blessings is equivalent to trust in God. If you do not trust him, how do you expect him to bless you? If you ask me, why God never touch you and make you feel him. I want to ask you a question, have you allow him to come into your life and show himself up in reality.