Disengagement

I had a disengagement which happened this morning and I feel, its a matter of fact I reckon god just wants me to know that. Because GOD doesn't want me to be blinded anymore. I am really puzzled and confused at the moment of time. A flash of moment I was dejected and disappointed once more. I do not wish to give any comment but to sit motionless at my seat. I really do not know whether can I believe in his words again? As I was deceived over and over again. This is when GOD anchor this matter across 'him' for the final time.

Probably GOD just happened to make him say it for himself. I realised GOD loves me more than enough to plan my path, to enlighten my soul and to nurture the self-being in me. He is teaching me a way of self cultivation in order to walk down the path he shone brightly at with greater courage and faith. Just like what Pastor Meng told me, the peace is within the connection with good and GOD. Where GOD comes in all forms. So . . .

I asked god, can I trust him again and god says.

:What sorrows for those who drag their sins behind them, with ropes made of lies, who drag wickedness behind them like a cart! Thou shall not find peace. ISAIAH 6:20

Like what I've told GOD he is not a bad guy, he is just misleaded and corrupted by the devil in him. I randomly flipped to god's word again and he says

:Peace is with you! As the father has send me, therefore I am sending you. Then he breathed on them and said: " Receive the Holy spirits, If you forgive anyone's sin, they are forgiven. JOHN 20:22

I am amazed, for my believes somehow, touched. You wont believe it until you encounter it yourself :)

You can be yourself and people just love you who you are. As in what Conrad told me. Those who do not see the beautiful heart you've got are not deem to be call a friend of yours. His quote which says: socialising with the beautiful people shallowly and in depth with the ones with a beautiful heart and wisdom. People who loves you for your being will never leave your life. He is one of the many who convinced me, why do you have a make a change in yourself to make others lust than being true over you?

With grace and serene,
Thank you