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Although it is so heart quenching but I know I just have to accept it for a fact he really left.

Totally in my life.

I became a total stranger to him somehow in a way or another.

Even though everything was anticipated and predicted in a way,

I just couldn't help but to feel that is he really leaving my life for good.

Although I told everyone,

I will move on.

But my heart just remain still and stationary,

it just doesn't allow me to move on.

I was out for the night with the usual crew on a Friday night and I was talking to brother R,

he just asked me,

why am I so good to him.

I just shook my head, give a smile and remain quiet.

He asked again, why am I not at all angry,

I should have scold him to make myself feel better.

Well,

I just replied I do not know how to get angry at him and if scolding helps,

there wont be so many divorced couple walking around.

The air got abit tense up and

he makes me laugh again by doing the ly signature dance move.

Sometimes I wish I could hate him,

fall in-love with someone else to make myself feel better.

But things somehow doesn't work that way.

It just hurts like eternalty whenever I bumped onto him,

I am afraid to see him yet I longed so much to catch a glimspe of him.

It is contradicting.

I predict that things will turn worst in weeks to come as he will be getting what he planned in the first place.

On the hind side of it,

I just happened to be the victim of his plan,

suffering everynight,

hoping to dream of us,

dreaming of him giving his usual smile,

lying on his bed with his wide open arms for me to whine and cuddle in it.

Well, his plan just has to go on,

all I can do is to wish him well,

take a peek at his updates,

taste my own tears,

feel the heartache and hope that it will be over soon.

加油吧。

希望你偶而会想想我，

有一天会记得，

你的宝宝一直都在那个你熟悉的角落

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默默的等你。